Hi I’m Vicky and new to this group. I’m 37 and always assumed one day I would wake up and have the biological urge to have children, but no it didn’t happen.
As the years go by im surer than ever I don’t want them but struggle with the implications in every day life. At work when meeting new people it seems to be something everyone else has in common and can share stories and bond over, where as when I say I don’t have them the conversation gets awkward whilst they worry it might not be due to choice.
I suppose I’ve felt more and more isolated as each of my girlfriends have got pregnant. my best friend was adamant she didn’t want them and we had that in common but this summer she got pregnant accidentally and is now expecting in January.
Recently I’ve started to feel less of a woman because of my decision and feel that people look at me differently because of it and im not sure how to deal with that.
i do worry for the future and don’t want myself and my fiancée to feel like the odd couple amongst our group of friends. Perhaps we need to get more involved with our friends lives even if it means doing lots of things with kids.
sorry for long first message, just looking forward to having a private outlet for my feelings on this issue.