I am 38 years old and don't want to have kids. This has been the case for as long as I can remember. Peer pressure, family pressure, social pressure and all kinds of pressure made me doubt but I still don't have children. Having tried all the contraceptives available, I would like now to be sterilized permanently. The possibility of being pregnant is for me a terror that comes lurking when I am having sex with my boyfriend and it stops the pleasure I feel. I want to have all of my pleasure, all of my body and all of myself without the possibility of pregnancy. That is why I turn to you, my childless sisters, so you can inform me of your own experiences and ideas.